Starting up this blog has taken a great deal of courage for me. Even though it’s been on my heart and mind for years, I’m afraid. It is out of my comfort zone. I’ve resisted it for a long time because of fear. I’m afraid of myself – afraid of writing anything that would be dishonoring to the Lord, afraid of failing, afraid of the unknown, afraid of being “out there” and exposed in my imperfections.
Recently, though, God was reminding me of how He created every single one of us uniquely. He created me with specific strengths, but He also created me with specific weaknesses. I was reading the following verses:
As He passed by, He saw a man blind from birth. And His disciples asked Him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he would be born blind?” Jesus answered, “It was neither that this man sinned, nor his parents; but it was so that the works of God might be displayed in him.” (John 9:1-3)
For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. (Psalm 139:13-14)
And so… I realized that I need to walk in my strengths and trust Him with my weaknesses. Both are for HIS glory!
If I shrink back in fear and shame, how can He shine through me?
If I fear my own failure, how can I walk by faith and allow His Spirit to lead me and work through me?
Also, because He made each person unique, me walking in my strengths will not look the same as someone else who might have some of the same strengths. And I need to be okay with that. Again, I need to trust Him to use me according to HIS WILL and purpose, even if I don’t know exactly what that’s supposed to look like.
God created us to be unique for the benefit of His Body. We all have a part to play. We all have something to contribute. May this online space be one that edifies and builds up my sisters in Christ. May I be a faithful steward and not shrink back in fear. (Ephesians 4:15-16)
So, daily, as I write and as I dig into His Word, I continue to pray that He would use me, that He would keep me humble, that “the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart” would “be acceptable in [His] sight” (Psalm 19:14). To God be the glory.
I covet your prayers!